Friday, March 30, 2007

My Granny had left us on 29th March 2007.
Again i am tearing. i cant get so slp neither can i stay over night over at granny hse i need to wait for da jie to be back frm penang tmr mornin.

I was at granny place in the morning. Chat with her, watched tv prog with her, joked with her. Its such a normal and wonderful with her. She asked me how my studies... told her i have graduated and lookin for a job so that i can earn the money and give her some amt to spend. I even went to buy lunch and had lunch together with her and mum. Thats normally what we did when we are over at Granny hse. She even told me the buffet i had on my birthday was nice. Its just so normal conversation we had upon each visit. And so left for home with mum at late afternoon. And even before i left, i told her... sunday we will be going over again cos da jie return frm penang. She even say ok, free than come again. But on our way back home, we received call sayin granny had sudden attack again. by the time we reached.. its jus a lil distance awy to granny hse, she has left us, peacefully. joanne was driving and mum was guiding her so had to keep numb frm them.
but for me... had to bear with it.. to prevent mum frm being suspicious...
my mind was in a twirl. everything was so perfect in the morning. those time i spent with her. its so wonderful but at nite she left w/o a word.

Yet I am glad to see her 'sleeping' so soundly. She's tired. She hasn't been having proper slps on every night. And now, i see her in deep long sleeps. Thou she will never be awake again to had conversation with me. Hopes that she is happy in the other world. In a world with her leading healthy and happy life and no illness.

I am feeling so miserable now.

My one and only beloved Granny is gone,
Forever.

♥ connie at 12:16 AM